Tracking strips of dreams

YAY!! 

I am FINALLY going for a REAL holiday trip this coming Sunday! XD okay, it may only be Singapore which I've been before but!! IT's A VACATION for *toot*'s sake!!!

Anyway, I have finally succeeded tuning back my sleeping time. Well... until now TT (looks at the time) but the fact that I am awake in the day makes me feel sleepy and tired all the time??!?! WHYY???!! 

Maybe my body is still not adjusted to it yet? BUt it's so hardd.... it makes me wanna sleep all the time and no matter how much I get after I woke up.. I still want moreeeee...!!

But I can feel really tired even when I am about to fall asleep. My whole body will sink... and then my dreams.. oh gosh. I have been dreaming so much that my gf told me that I was talking in my sleeeeppp!! *GASP* And apparently... I even let out a cry! ><  I bet I freaked her out (LOL)

But the dreams are so messed up and it makes me feel funny, weird and I find them really interesting XD I can;t really decipher them properly, really... well it's hard to remember them now already. I regret not talking about them here while I remembered. I probably will if I dream later XD well if they are *coughs* decent ones ><>

For now I think I only remember a vague face of some guy ><>

And I think he was wearing this.. um.. not very flattering striped green and black T?? @@ long sleeve I guess? * ARGGHH*

Oh well, my head is hurting now cos this vampire-like "ME" was trying so hard to sleep at night and wake up in the day. Now I shall hit the sack and try to be normal for once. 

Things passed in a blink. Too unexpected and overwhelming that I can't even sit through it properly and decipher them in my mind to blog about it. 

I am tired of complaining. Whining. I 'whine' so much that once an ex colleague asked if she should give me cheese to go with it.

I am even sick of myself to talk about how my last attempt in my plans didn't work out. Probably my intention in pursuing that particular job wasn't exactly right. I was desperate for one and needed money. It didn't work out. And I was really sad. 

I am currently idle again. And I won''t say I am enjoying it, but I do think I need some time to clear my mind about things. Really, really sit down with myself, go through them, get myself back together and start a fresh. I have been contemplating about this, or get another job since I need $$ desperately too, for my car, for daily expenses.  I really hate to ask from my family as I never do. Since most of the time they pay for everything I need. I live with them, eat together. What more can I ask for? So at least if I want to spend on things that I want, I get them myself.

A friend has been staying with me for a week. As she needs me, I stay with her as much as I can. I am not saying that this is getting in my way to do my work but it's delayed and I feel like crap now.

I need to re-organise myself, my things, plans, and life then I could start anew to achieve what I want most. 

For now, I'll want to take the time I have to be inspired all over again in writing, in painting (am learning from a very helpful & kind wife/friend of mine) and I really don't want to disappoint her as I have been really late in my submission of works :( I gotta work much harder. And get my room revamp a.s.a.p so I could work more comfortably and blab about it here :) I can't wait!

Looking at my clutter and trash-like room makes me suffocate now TT

Oh, btw. Birthday was over and it was strangely quiet. But all good :) The birthday messages were enough to make me feel on top of the world. Hah. 

Thanks buddies. 

XOXO 

Vampire Obssession

Stumbled onto this movie with zero idea on what's it about and it turned out, to serendipitously sweep me off my feet. Yes, I was ignorant enough to not know the movie I was gonna watch was the novel I always spot in the bookstores I roam all the time. And they never caught my attention 'cause I didn't know it was about vampires TT or else... Hmm... normally the book covers will do the trick to get me

 grabbing them in the 1st place.  So... could it be the cover is not attractive enough to my liking? ><>

(p/s: this image above is a wallpaper I found from Google Images so feel free to save it up and start ogling over the sexy vampires!: Emmet, Alice, Edward, Bella, Jasper, Rosalie)

I really love just how they portray the 'vampires' in this movie. It doesn't show all the cliche elements you expect to see in a vampire movie. I don't want to go too detailed about this here since I find this part so fascinating for me since I didn't read the book, so witnessing the characters' appearance this way plays a very important part and reason to why I am so crazy about this movie. Given that the most fascinating part of vampires are simply their characteristics, appearance and whatnot. So I'll leave this awesome part out for you to find it out yourself! XD Well, the story was adapted from a another teenage romance love novel but instead of seeing the fangs, sinking into necks of beautiful woman, bloody and all... it's a pretty subtle blend of cool romance. Which... could be something refreshing? (or maybe I'm just so blinded) A lot of mixed up feelings between two immortal and mortal kind of "Romeo & Juliet" story. (as the reviews and media press comments call it) An indifferent teenager, Isabella Swan who moves to a small rainy town and fell in love with a vampire, Edward Cullen who wants to kill her all the time for lusting for her blood and yet, in love with the 'person' itself at the same time. A little mind blogging isn't it? Oh well, this kind of frustrating complication of emotions and feelings are what we girls love most... no? XD

Okay, second honest confession... I was drooling over this guy. Robert Pattinson whom I later found out that he was also the one who played Cedric in Harry Potter & The Goblet of Fire. (the one who died in the end. *correction* the handsome one who died in the end) *dies out of hyperventilation* Argh... it triggered all my fangirl senses back!! And It could be bad thing TT.

So I was talking about me getting hooked, I went to the bookstore and grabbed the 1st book today, "Twilight". In a set of 4, the other 3 were "New Moon", "Eclipse" and "Breaking Dawn". And apparently according to Wikipedia, if published, "Midnight Sun" will be a retelling of the first book, from Edward Cullen's point of view. I had the urge and rush to get all four of them! but blessing in this guise, I didn't due to my current financial constraining status TT

Anyway! That's all fangirl enthusiasm release for now... I want to get to my book indulgence a.s.a.p! XD nights y'all!

Tim Burton - Vincent

One of my fave - Tim Burton. 

The Monk and The Fish

Back to Square One. Fuck the fucked up days. yay.

Half way through my pack of smokes. I feel more depressing than ever about my current state of looks when I reflected myself (naked face), looking more haggard than ever. 

Oh gawd.

Permanent shades that is.

Not to mention killing my lungs and health faster too.

It's back to square one. 

Just when I thought I have a whole new thought and change of plans of my life. I see more future and opportunity for my career... and life. I told myself, nevermind the stress, nevermind the tough work of juggling more than TWO things at work, nevermind the physical stress of the long distance drive, despite waking up at 6am every morning at sleeping approx. 5 hours every night... it's okay.

No joke, I began to lose my appetite (don't ask me why). I still feel hungry, yes. But it's so forceful I had to shove food down my throat every meal. It's like a chore. Then I lose concentration at work. I can't work. I can't focus, so I can't write good and perform at my best. It could be... (surprise) stress?

Then I started to lose my mind. I was cheated RM50 on my way to the mall nearby after a lousy day at work, to meet up with a friend who promised to cheer me up that day. I paid a RM100 note (that's what I was left with) for a RM10 fare. I took RM40 of change and left the VERY rude Indian taxi driver's cab. 

"That was it. Enough." I told myself. I can't help it but broke down when I spoke to dad on the phone. His words were surprisingly very comforting. "Looks like no matter how much I tell myself I could do this as long as I stay strong, there are things that I really can't get control of... I don't know what I'm doing anymore." He replied, "There are never a time where we could get a 100% control of all situations in life. Things like that happen. I told you, if you can't take it anymore, don't push yourself so hard. Take a deep breath, relax. Okay?"

I felt much better. 

So 'he' came. He spotted me, came and greeted the 'me' with a cigg then. 

Benn: You look so different.

Manda: (laughs) How different?

Benn: Not the Manda I used to know?

Manda: Hmm? Like how lar??

Benn: Always full of energy.

Manda: :)

Thank god I have friends. Yes, all of you. 

You all make my fucked up days all... not so 'fucked up' anymore.

I love you all :)

Then when I feel a little more lightened up, I told him, "Oh well. *shrugs*  I'll (try) to look at the bright side? I bought 'this' decision from that asshole taxi driver for RM50. XD"

To leave my job that is. And I did.

Main reasons? 

Bah. 

Long, complicated, very un-called for story. Save the SHITS here, back to my 'webbed' feet eh, Juno?

So... now what? :3 

I bounced back and forth, left to right and back and forth again.. now back to square one. 

Jobless... and... lost + a little blue once in a while. Since I got to feed my new 'baby' now. My not so new, 2nd hand Getz. XD 

Yup. My very own car ^^ ahh.. I'll snap a picture of it soon and update this entry here. Well I got another new member in the family to feed. Whom will most probably eat more than I do :P  Like what Benn says. 

Wish me luck with my yet again new start from now? What's gonna happen next? What to do, what to do?

"Life is like a box of chocolates (alright)"

*Back to my long procrastinated writing I promised someone. Sheesh.

 

How To Cope With Depression

I want it to rain

I called it stopped.
Not just once,
Not just twice.
It was repeated from my lips...

Out of breath,
Out of redemption;
Partly helpless,
Partly still... very afraid.

With much disinclination,
From his physical strength,
From his inner desires;
He was much reluctant to let go...

Sadly,
Very sadly,
It wasn't because he wanted me for me;
He just wanted 'it'...
Just then,
Just there.

One of the many seven,
Has almost,
Very nearly,
Over taken me...

The one by the name of 'Lust',
Has graveled me greatly;
I had once again fallen,
To the hands of sin.

I could feel my insides sink,
I could feel the lump in my throat hard to swallow,
I could feel I am stopping something strong,
I could feel the weight I have increased...
To the scathe I have done to myself.

"Drive me home",
Guts spilled;
Uttered words I couldn't forgive my foolishness,
I left the car...
Finally.

Back in my own sanctuary,
Then I felt,
Like I could see,
My heart on the floor...

Covered in red,
Covered in pain;
Still beating...

This time,
I know,
I couldn't tear no more...

I reached for the window,
"I want it to rain",
I said;
Then I rested my soul,
And myself,
On my bed.

Eyes closed,
Thoughts fluctuated.

Then I heard,
Very sudden,
And very heavy patters...

It didn't help in making the sorrows on my face go away,
It didn't help in making the pain inside go away,
It certainly didn't and wouldn't help,
In making the wounds go away...
Ever.

But,
I felt...
A little,
Just a little...
Slightly,
Better...

Anticipation, then Heartache.

I really love this guy.
Unquestionably talented. Charming. An amazing actor.

It was shocking and upsetting to learn about his death.
And it brought me even more skeptical thoughts and questions to have learned about the tragic ending of his life right after role playing 'The Joker' in "The Dark Knight" - 2008.

To grasp the life of a psycho and dwell in such awful sadism; who feels no fear, who lives his life with no rules.
A 'clown' who casts a smile on faces with his razor wand.

I tried fitting a foot (in this case, I meant by only imagining) into the shoe of this horrifying man, 'The Joker' - as an actor, and for the love of embracing different lives in one body- If it was I, to adopt such a maniacal character, it might be too overwhelming and empowering... I might begin to know 'it' so well or worse, to actually fall in love with the other 'me' so much, even more than I ever knew myself and loved myself so much that I doubt if I could ever retrieve myself from it ever again.

I shivered in disturbance; yet disturbed by the cold loneliness.

I sat back... and then straight up, eyes glued to the glowing screen in the dark hall, along with other audiences, whom were as concentrated in the movie... while clenching my fists and occasionally my teeth with more deep frowns on my forehead...

I watched this demented villain throughout and till the end of the show filled with pain in my heart.

Fear

The flight's at 0810.

So, that means I have to be there 45 mins before the check-in time closes.
I can't sleep last night. (well, if you consider heading off to bed half an hour before the time that I have to wake up is still called a 'sleep'? or rather... a nap?)

*argh*

I was in borders yesterday, killing my time away in the Gardens Mid Valley since I had no where else to go then and finished a short story from this book of ghost stories which I can't remember the name. By a Singaporean named Andrew Lim. And yes, I was thinking about the story all the time when I closed my eyes and I couldn't sleep TT (stupid me)

So yea, this explains why I have gotten myself ready so early before time and had enough spare to time write on my blog XD *bah*

Wish me a safe and fun trip to Langkawi y'all!
XD tata's~

Sketchy Sketches

I feel much better today.

Thank you for those who have been wishing and sending me "Get well soon" smses and all XP (now it sounded so serious pulak)

The fever has already subsided since yesterday, but the flu is still bad. Just hoping that the tonsils on my throat won't swell up again.
So I'm glad I managed to sketch something yesterday since it was raining heavily when I woke up so I didn't get to go online. I've been wanting to do that for soo long :)

So here they are, some random simple sketches.
Didn't know what to draw and had nothing specific on my mind. Did what I used to do back in college :P copying.... bah. what else? TT

I know I am no good in drawing using plain imagination. TT
Did the girl first, yes it's unfinished and I decided not to complete it :3
Reference taken from an ad by Chloe, Pedderzine - No.2: Harmony - autumn/winter collection

Oh yea the arms looked funny too. At first it was too long and then they were too skinny I think XD
Yea lar the proportion structure sucks too.. XP So let's focus on their faces instead. XD

Reference taken from magazine, Flaunt | 86 - Before The Fall - Josh Harnett

And yes, this is 'suppose' to be Josh Harnett. XD and this is definitely a 'WIP' (work-in-progress) so I'll definitely finish it, yes. *nods*

Artworks - adjusted lighting and colour on outlines in Photoshop CS2

Mandy & Mandy; Mommy & Strawberries

To first cut-out all the disappointments and despair of the overall break I've been having... T.T let's not talk about how far and different the results have been from the expected and ruled-out plan.

Not forgetting to mention my loyal friend whom lingered for a good-long-period of time by the name of 'pyrexia' (also known as pyrexia, from the Greek pyretos meaning fire, or a febrile response, from the Latin word febris, meaning fever, and archaically known as ague) - wikipedia a.k.a 'fever'; in short, I was sick. And I still am. Thanks to the tonsils on my throat, the fever kept coming back.

So it has not been very productive this break... but.. oh well, I did manage to visit Cameron Highlands, at least :P

Since it is actually where mom is from, so my aunt, uncle and my two cousin brothers are also there. My eldest cousin brother Draven, was very hospitable the whole time. He brought us out for lunch, dinner and whatnot most of the time... and even introduced us to his girls XD but I only managed to snap photos of only one of them... ><

Aunty was carrying the mini poodle walking up hill in Strawberry Farm where mom and I was waiting for our Strawberry Waffle with Ice Cream.

Mandy: (saw the dog and started shrieking) Eeee!!! SO cuuuuttte!! XD
Mom: Eeee!! Yeaa!! So obedient wan?? (looking at Aunt)
Aunt: Yea.. she is quite the obedient one among the three. (there were 2 more at their home)

And then Aunt handed the dog to cousin brother.

Mandy: Can I carry her?? Will she let me? (looking at Draven)
Draven: Yea, you can. She's fine :)

Cuddling her happily until cousin brother started calling 'her' name...

Draven: Mandy~ Mandy~ Man-man...~

Mandy: (face in horror) Mandy??!!!
Draven: Yea... ??
Mandy: o_O ... that would be my nameee~~~!!

And then everybody laughed.
Ha - ha.


Mandy & Mandy

She was seriously using trying all her might to escape from me. Guess she didn't feel the 'connection' for sharing the same name like I did ><>

The yummy but a little oh-too-sweet Strawberry Waffle with Ice Cream :3

Mommy + Strawberry

Mandy + Strawberry

Hills of the Tea Plantation


Mandy enjoying her windy ride. Apparently she loves it...

Sooo much that if Aunt weren't there to hold on tight to her legs she would've performed a pretty good flying-dawg-off-the-tea-farm-hills and come rolling down.
*sarcastic hand-claps*

Mom, Me, Mandy & Aunt. (she just wouldn't look at the cam. *hmph*)

And this rather silly pic of me is taken by mom when she saw me doing yet another silly expression over the cooling environment which really made me very reluctant to move an inch out of my bed and blanket... not to even mention going into the shower TT

Oh well, overall it was a very pleasant trip. I love the weather so much I was a little reluctant to leave for the scorching hot KL. *sigh* but look at the bright side! Honestly, too much of the lovely weather over there... might only end up making me wanna eat more and MORE and more... and stay in bed allll day... so... maybe not that of a good idea after all :P

Ahh! 11 more days and I'm back to work! T.T

*wish me more luck? I'll need it*

Message to Kitty: Bittersweet

Hey Kitty,

It's wonderful to know that you're here again.

It's been so long. But you know you're never forgotten.
Good to know that the connection is still there. The feeling, the effects, inner-transformation, an impossibly believable manifestation from an imagination.

But it's strange how satisfying and melancholic it feels at the same time.

So how long will you stay this time around?
Will you be gone for long after you leave again? Or will you be coming once in a while when I think of you most? Or.. will you be staying for good?
But it won't be a good idea, would it?

Manda.

I cannot believe it.

I am really, officially on a One Whole Month's Break! XD

What am I gonna do?! Where am I gonna go?! I have so many things speeding and flashing through my mind but just so do I have that much time and money to do all of them? Well maybe not... but still it's a good opportunity and well deserving treat after all that stress from studies and work before I head back to more to come right? :P

Wish me luck! (and pray that I won't become broke and depressed again after over-spending in this unpaid month ><) *both fingers crossed*


My Unbelievably Believable To-do List (Hopeful)

1. Trip/ Travel/ Soul Searching
2. Take lotsa pics, write down what I see/ feel & experience on my 'Travel Journal"
3. Write stories - own collection (help from Ciaee's illustrations? Collaboration?)
4. Cooking & baking!
5. Handicrafts & DIYs for friends and folks
6. Paint/ draw/ design
7. Solo shopping/ pampering
8. Spring clean room & closet!
9. Tune body clock and healthy living patterns
10. Hit the gym already!
    
11. Bring Kei Kei for a day out (my student)
12. Finish my books & novels =_=
13. Bring Julius for walks more often! ><

The Worst City Names in the World

*lol*

Alright, maybe it's a little surprising to see 'this' appearing in my blog... but hey, I stumbled onto this when I was browsing for city names by accident and it's just freakin' hilarious! And I just got to share with everyone right?

They are the worst city names existing in the world. I don't know if they still do now, but oh well, who cares?! As long as they make me laugh! XD

You HAVE to check this out. It'll make your day. I promise.
Enjoy! XD

1) Cockburn, Western Australia

Although this name is often pronounced "Coburn" by those who stand to lose from its awfulness, who actually reads that when they see this word? Oh, how it burns.

2) Twatt, Orkney, Shetland Islands, Scotland

The Shetland Islands, pronounced "Shitland Islands" by the locals. Oh the pride...

3) Taumatawhakatangihangakoauauotamateapok-
aiwhenuakitanatahu, New Zealand

Locals call this hill in Hawke's Bay "Taumata" because... Well. Just because.

4) Muff, Ireland

They have a town called Muff. Har har har.

5) Looneyville, Texas, United States

Little Looneyville was named for storekeeper John Looney in the early 1870s. But who gives a shit. This is a hilarious name for a town in the state that brought us Dallas, the Bush Twins and Waco. How awkward must that be when you go to college? "Hey guys, my name's Johnny and I'm from Looneyville!"

6) Titty Hill, Sussex, England

Falling squarely into the extensive Stupid Place Names From England category, Titty Hill is probably located just north of...

7) Thong, Kent, England

Which actually is south-east of...

8) Gravesend, Kent, England

Oh, come on, England. Graves End? What a nasty, depressing little name. You could have at least gone all the way with this one and called it Corpse Feet.

9) Wetwang, Yorkshire... yep! England again!

Okay, so I'll cut England some slack. It's an old country. You know, if the United States is Google, then England is IBM. Their country is older than freakin dirt. They can't be blamed for having names that sound funny in 2007. But this is kind of ridiculous. Wetwang? I'm surprised they don't have towns called Squishy Vagina or Infected Scrotum.

10) Spread Eagle, Wisconsin

If I were mayor of Spread Eagle, I'd be making diplomatic advances towards the city leaders over in Wetwang to form a Sister-City relationship. Or maybe more of a Platonic-Friends-City relationship. After that, we'd just take thing slow and see what happened.

11) Bald Knob, Arkansas, United States

Well, I guess it's better than Hairy Knob. I assume England already has that one covered.

12) Cockup, Cumbria, England

Cumbria is a county in the very north-west of England. What the backwoods of Alabama are to America is what Cumbria is to Britain. They talk funny up there. Thus, it isn't thoroughly surprising that they have a town called Cockup. What do you call someone from this place? A Cockupper? Cockupeleite? Cockuppian? Cockupican? I suppose it's mildly better than Wetwangger.

13) Whiskey Dick Mountain, Washington State, United States

As hard as America tries, it can't compete with Britain's high standards. This was a good effort, though. Well done, Washington.

14) Hookersville, West Virginia

Undoubtedly named before "hooker" meant "prostitute who picks men up on street corners," Hookersville combines two crimes of place-naming. One, a dirty sounding adjective (they couldn't have chosen "Pleasant"? "Sunny"? "Happy"?) And two, they added "ville" to the end of the town's name. Affixing "ville" to the end of a town's name is like dressing your silly little dog in a cardigan and letting him carry his leash around in his mouth. It just makes the poor animal look stupid.

15) Hell, Michigan, United States

The people in this town at least seem to have a good sense of humor about their home's unfortunate name. Although, I'm sure there's some midwestern idiots in Hell who get all offended and defensive when the town shows up on lists like this. I'm looking forward to reading their insightful emails and comments.

16) Toad Suck, Arkansas, United States

So that's what they do down in the big AR.

17) Middelfart, Denmark

I guess it's not so funny to them, but how do we know that "Seattle" doesn't mean "Big Fat Stinking Turd" in Danish? That's right, we don't. And it probably does.

18) Horneytown, North Carolina, United States

Its proximity to Hookersville, West Virginia is no coincidence. I also assume that, like Hookersville, the naming of Horneytown took place before "horney" meant "aching for a hot piece of ass" with an extra "e". But I'm starting to wonder why, pride and tradition aside, the townspeople in these little places never saw it fit to change their homes' names? Do they enjoy being ridiculed by the entire English-speaking world?

19) Shitterton, Dorset, England

I wonder if they bleep out the first part of Shitterton's name if it's mentioned on the Disney Channel?

20) Disappointment, Kentucky, United States

Le sigh. Never mind. You live in a small town in Kentucky. At least it was appropriately named.

21) Fucking, Austria

The idiots who live in Fucking, Austria had a vote in 2004 to determine whether or not they should change the town's name, and you know what they did? They voted against it, preferring instead to put up with international ridicule, numerous stolen road-signs and horrific Google results.

22) Last but not least: Whakapapa

Why is this the worst place name in the world? In Maori, the native language of New Zealand, the "wh" sound is pronounced "f". Say it aloud in your office and see what happens.

p/s: Ooh guess what?? There's more!

My Way by Jidi

Jammy, my colleague brought this beautiful comic titled "My Way" by Jidi to work today.
I was really amazed.

'Beautiful' is just not enough to describe this full coloured, more like a very illustrative storybook rather than a comic to me.

I was once again in love when I laid my eyes on this pretty colours and such unique looking characters, chipping in a little melancholy. But... I regrettably announce, that this is another wonderful masterpiece by an illustrator from China. In other words, it is written in chinese... and to make that even clearer... it means I couldn't read it. *cries out loud*

I could only tell that it is a story about a magician. (as far as I can guess).





























































And I suppose this would be another illustration by her, non-related to this comic. There are some I found even way better than this image I found online (from the book). Equally beautiful that is.
p/s:
1) Looking up on this artist and this work was how I got stumbled upon Jimmy Liao as well. (refer to previous post and do check out the video please? ><)
2) Please forgive me on the weird spacing and layout of the images. (blogspot has never liked me in the beginning *sobs*)

The Fish With A Smile

Although I did not understand a word from it, it made me teary-eyed.

Such pure and sincere illustrations show innocence and feelings clearly. It's moving and beautiful both the art and the message. It simply wakens the inner child in us, triggering our emotions. Other than being close enough to bring me tears, it painted a smile on my face.

And so, I found myself another favourite illustrator, Jimmy Liao.

Moody Monday

Like every weekday morning, a drowsy, grouchy, lazy wake-up from a less than 6 hours sleep.

Especially being Monday, I ought to follow my routine of tapping on the 'power' button on the radio, in hopes of letting the wacky pair (morning crew) to cheer up my morning...

I fell back on my bed, listening to the tune being played, and my heart wrenched. Without an apparent reason.
I curled up even more on my snuggly bed, comforting me warmly in this cooling temperature in my sanctuary, I felt even more dispirited.

With the heaviest of disinclination, I got up... switched on my pc at 8:45 am Monday morning (45 mins before being late at work), and wrote this.

Here 'I' go again.

Good morning 'World'.

I have broken my sleeping record. About 20 hours straight the night before. And no sleep at all last night. XD

Looks like I am returning to the 'Freak-Manda' back in college days battling in between assignments and life. Heh. Not that I'm saying this is a good thing... but, I feel more like myself. Rather than the routine-paced-robotic-figure waking up at the same time every morning, go to work, lunch, long hours at work, dinner, then even longer hours, and sometimes slot in supper AND some more hours then only head home. This kinda life only suffocates me in no time. But again, I know, life is but a routine after all. I can't be running and flying around astray forever no matter how much I would love to. There is one day that I have to learn how to grow these legs and land. But meanwhile, it's still too soon to the find the right ground to land if I don't be a freak to roam around and search for it first, no? XD So let's just 'fly' for now!

These rebellious behaviours give me a sense of freedom. At least I am breaking the structures and rules again. Strangely, only these kinda living patterns give me inspiration. Really. That is why I am writing now after all that while.Well, these kinda impulsive and undisciplined acts happen for a reason. Like... I am troubled? Very likely. So I am going to make an important decision today. And that will break into some freedom for me. I think I deserve a break before I pump-up my power and continue my road ahead, no? I haven't really gotten a proper well-deserved holiday since I finished my hell-college days, I have jumped straight to hell-reality-working-world.

Graduation Ceremony on the 26th April 2008, last Saturday was pretty awesome ^^ followed by a crazy After Party at Bar Celona, Sunway Pyramid 2. It was great to see the wacko fellow design mates again and then go wild after all the hell-days in college. The ceremony itself was... well.. how should I say this, as usual... fun but kinda stupid XD it's just typical The One Academy style of everything. With the Giant Plush Teddy Bear (our Principal) with shattered English unprepared speech, the funny song they picked when we went up to receive our scrolls which made my worries of tripping while going up and down the steps worse (it was every girls worry and fear!) and just like how the 'this guy' would direct us to take the group photographs on stage saying "Give more space to the others. COMPRESS more" .... ?!?!?!? (Compress??)

Overall, it was memorable and I had fun =D






















That's a picture of Graduate-Teddy & Porky-bun 'Manda at The One Academy's Graduation Ceremony at Sheraton Subang, 26th April 2008. More pictures to come on the next entry.

And now I gotta get ready for work. =) Wish me luck!

This Penang Trip

So it was 4 days after Christmas. Now that I remember, seeing the date on the edited pink tortoise picture(for this is an unforgivable LATE post). It was another cannot-afford-anywhere-further-but-we-still-need-a-holiday trip, to Penang. So since there's nothing much other than the non-exciting slithering reptilians in a temple, the sleeping buddha, the bridge? and more temples... there is of course (the best of all things in Penang) -> F O O D.

But honestly... there really isn't much to say about them other then muttering "good, good. very nice." while spitting bits of food from my mouth when eating the famous kuey teow, laksa, cendol, (you name it). There is something more, something better and unforgettable about this trip.

Dad's friend from Penang, Uncle Tony met up with us (my family and I). Brought us around for the best Hou Jien (fried oyster) and what not. And then, he mentioned about having 3 kids. 2 girls and a boy. 3, 4 and 5. "Do-Re-Mi" he said. I don't dislike kids. Not anymore at least. I have grown to love them, especially after I started tutoring. But I still don't fancy 'every' kid. You just can't. Trust me. But then he said to me with utmost assurance in his tone, Uncle Tony, "I am sure you will love them".
And I did. We all did.

2 beautiful girls, Francesca, Eveanna (not sure how to spell her name) Geez, why didn't i ask her? stupid. And Clarence (the little one)

This is Francesca. The eldest, sweet, very obedient, a very good girl. (above)
And Eveanna, (below)


And that will be Clarence. (above)


Absolutely unforgettable.

Rewind: B'day & X'mas 2007

Things just came and gone like a 'swish' and then a 'swoosh' altogether. So speedy I could hardly catch up. I turned 21. I have graduated. Christmas and New Year is over too. And now I am just dumping my pics everywhere in this entry for this one whole section of 2007. (before we move on that is)
Oh yea. And not forgetting my Penang trip towards the very end of last year. (this would be on the next entry)
=) enjoy.



















I had my my 21st bash at home. Most of my dear friends from everywhere possible came.. It was quite a blast. Despite the tiny bit feeling of embarrassment for doing the old skool birthday song, and food as the 'main' thing of the whole party.




















Zmun & I. Mian Yee & I.















Jenn & I.















Juno, Jeff & I.

And now the presents..















When they were still all in bags..















And here are some of the lovely gifts... These I took in the morning.. like 8 or 9 am. After coming back from BarFlam at Sunway and the yumcha & supper sessions. I was still awake after the long night. So long yet so quick it has passed. There were these really sweet deliciously smelling Strawberry and Cranberry bath set from Body Shop. A feminine, fresh and sweet L'Occitane Eu De Toilette. And finally... my long waited Black XS Paco Rabanne perfume!! It has this wild, mysterious yet sexy and a hint of deep dark sweetness scent. Omg, I just can't stop smelling myself with all these fragance on me! And then I wondered.. what's with all these perfume and body soaps for me now? Do I smell THAT BAD that I need them so desperately in these amount? -_-" *hmph*















On the way home from BarFlam. Canice & I.















And then the very next day, It was time to bid farewell to Azeem once again. He came all the way to KL from Sabah to attend my big day! *hugs* Not only that.. He brought me this friend.. In a slightly crumpled box who fled with him on the plane.. Who's dark.. Has HUGE red eyes..















(I really couldn't help but take more and more peeps before I finally couldn't resist and.. opened it.)











































It's Charco! A DooDoll! He's under my horoscope, Sagittarius that has almost very compatible attributes that I do! *lol* He looks utterly, blur+adorable.
























Thanks to Azeem once again. Lots of love, silly u! ^^




















My xmas was quiet..chilly and memorable =) *nudges Omar* This one is one of the magnificent fairie trees in Mid Valley. After some effects from my phone that is. Looks even dreamier to me now. Love it.