This were taken..*hmm*(thinks) on 4th March. A night before I need to hand in my logo sketches for my Corporate Identity class. Was terribly tired after staying up without sleep for many nights. To be seen in pictures STILL in this condition.. I am amazing! XD
Oh well.. Almost. XP
And then it was CNY days before that..
So this oinks were at the corner tables watching "us" gamble most of the time..
And "THESE" oinks.. were busy cam-whoring with my new Nokia 5300 XD ok lar. Just ME! *hmph*
Well.. Many things "seemed" to have happened". But not in the most oblivious way. Even I sub-conciously let it pass me by and tell myself that I hv NOT notice that. Which, seems very contradicting, no? I have thought.. I have been happier lately after I have lifted something off my shoulders and moved on. And then things around me keep progressing at their on pace and then.. I felt.. Left out. Left behind. And thought.. Shit. Now, I'm envious. Why? Have I been spending THAT much time on something that I had all my hopes, strength and even my heart in and realized that in the end.. I am left with nothing?
So what was that all about? Dream?? I wish! Then it means I have only used a few hours to result to this amount of dissapoinment and NOT crushing my hopes and in the end be reminded that I have to go on and start all over again with new BLANK hopes and whatever has happened, was all only in your head darling Amanda. It's time to wake up.
This may sound stupid and I might just get things like "It's okay, the sad times will soon pass and then will soon be over and u'll be happy again." "You will get what you want someday."
Someday.
It's all about hopes isn't it? BAH.
It's alright to sleep this over and look at the glaring sun the next morning. It's alright. Yup. Of course. But once in a while.. It will just *PANG* and then I will *OW* be reminded. So it is now a walking smiling human being beaming at u in the morning when she sees you but she has this empty slot in her heart. Pretty cool eh? ^^
Just maybe.. IF now I actually try the REVERSE. If I stop hoping. And actually totally give this up.. It will come to me eventually? Well, things always come to you when u least expect of them right? Haha.
-_-" I am contradicting myself again. (Am I not FREAKIN, sub-conciously HOPING already when I said that??!!) ARGH.
I have wasted much time again. CNY is over. It is now March, quarter of 2007 gone. Am turning 21 this year. Am having a stiff-neck now and I'm using "Yoko-yoko".
I am still the same. Pretty much. I still work till late nights... Okay let me re-phrase that. I STILL start working only at late nights. And now instead of taking light naps or (power-naps) which is Juno's favourite source of joke-making *, I now take.. *drum rolls* C O F F E E ! Surprise. Well, I did not mention anything about "IMPROVEMENTS" did I?? XD At least I am getting my work done!
And guess what?? Now it is time to do that! 1:53 am! Perfect! XD
*waves Goodnight* =)
p/s: Here I confess, I REALLY love you people who REALLY read my blog. *hugs*
