Tracking strips of dreams

YAY!! 

I am FINALLY going for a REAL holiday trip this coming Sunday! XD okay, it may only be Singapore which I've been before but!! IT's A VACATION for *toot*'s sake!!!

Anyway, I have finally succeeded tuning back my sleeping time. Well... until now TT (looks at the time) but the fact that I am awake in the day makes me feel sleepy and tired all the time??!?! WHYY???!! 

Maybe my body is still not adjusted to it yet? BUt it's so hardd.... it makes me wanna sleep all the time and no matter how much I get after I woke up.. I still want moreeeee...!!

But I can feel really tired even when I am about to fall asleep. My whole body will sink... and then my dreams.. oh gosh. I have been dreaming so much that my gf told me that I was talking in my sleeeeppp!! *GASP* And apparently... I even let out a cry! ><  I bet I freaked her out (LOL)

But the dreams are so messed up and it makes me feel funny, weird and I find them really interesting XD I can;t really decipher them properly, really... well it's hard to remember them now already. I regret not talking about them here while I remembered. I probably will if I dream later XD well if they are *coughs* decent ones ><>

For now I think I only remember a vague face of some guy ><>

And I think he was wearing this.. um.. not very flattering striped green and black T?? @@ long sleeve I guess? * ARGGHH*

Oh well, my head is hurting now cos this vampire-like "ME" was trying so hard to sleep at night and wake up in the day. Now I shall hit the sack and try to be normal for once. 

Things passed in a blink. Too unexpected and overwhelming that I can't even sit through it properly and decipher them in my mind to blog about it. 

I am tired of complaining. Whining. I 'whine' so much that once an ex colleague asked if she should give me cheese to go with it.

I am even sick of myself to talk about how my last attempt in my plans didn't work out. Probably my intention in pursuing that particular job wasn't exactly right. I was desperate for one and needed money. It didn't work out. And I was really sad. 

I am currently idle again. And I won''t say I am enjoying it, but I do think I need some time to clear my mind about things. Really, really sit down with myself, go through them, get myself back together and start a fresh. I have been contemplating about this, or get another job since I need $$ desperately too, for my car, for daily expenses.  I really hate to ask from my family as I never do. Since most of the time they pay for everything I need. I live with them, eat together. What more can I ask for? So at least if I want to spend on things that I want, I get them myself.

A friend has been staying with me for a week. As she needs me, I stay with her as much as I can. I am not saying that this is getting in my way to do my work but it's delayed and I feel like crap now.

I need to re-organise myself, my things, plans, and life then I could start anew to achieve what I want most. 

For now, I'll want to take the time I have to be inspired all over again in writing, in painting (am learning from a very helpful & kind wife/friend of mine) and I really don't want to disappoint her as I have been really late in my submission of works :( I gotta work much harder. And get my room revamp a.s.a.p so I could work more comfortably and blab about it here :) I can't wait!

Looking at my clutter and trash-like room makes me suffocate now TT

Oh, btw. Birthday was over and it was strangely quiet. But all good :) The birthday messages were enough to make me feel on top of the world. Hah. 

Thanks buddies. 

XOXO