Slumberless Inspiration

"I Do... I Really Did"

The chimes of the wedding bells,
Seemed so near;
The cheering crowd,
Seemed so familiar.

It was like yesterday I felt so bold,
It was like yesterday I felt so sure;
Here I waited,
As we promised.

Once the sun sets,
You said you'll be here;
Once the sun sets,
I ran here.

This empty house you pointed,
This very room we decided;
This dress I chose to be in when I escaped,
This dress, is the dress I chose to say "I Do" to you.

Where are you?
Where were you?
Just a letter saying "I'll be late",
Even the bird who delievered is gone and dead.

I waited,
I am still waiting.

In this empty house you pointed,
This very room we decided;
This dress I chose to be in when I escaped,
This dress, is the dress I chose to say "I Do" to you.

Poem inspired by this beautiful piece of artwork by Blackeri, originally named >> Love.
Do view it, or else you may not know what the hell am i saying.. thnk u.. =)

I couldn't sleep. It has been nights. It has been insane. At first, I wouldn't sleep until I see light from the window... until the sun rises. Now, I don't sleep at all... -_-" Back to how it used to be like when term starts again. It's crazy. I don't know what's wrong with me. Not that I don't want to sleep, I'm freaking tired. Not feeling too well even, but i just cant. Insomnia? Perhaps. It has been there for ages then.

So i browsed DA (Deviantart). After some silly website games. They could be quite fun... (They are safe Rufus dear, if u're reading this. don't worry k? *muax*) So, one of my favourite digital painter, Blackeri has a new submission. Her paintings are always great and mostly has a story behind them. My favourite would be her series of "The Seven Deadly Sins". Do check em out. But her new one, "Love", is very intriguing... Especially when she herself skipped the aprt of explaining it ^^ That makes it really fun to use your imagination to sum tings up, have your interpretation, your own story. Lovely. Loved it.

But honestly, that piece i wrote... I wouldn't really call it complete. It's not even finalised. It's a spontaneous piece of rough imagination and idea of it. If only one day, i would have better patience in sitting down and refining, sharpening the words nicely and resubmit it. I wonder why don't i have the patient to write like that anymore. sigh. Disappointing. Eventhough "Kay" always askes me why am i not writing lately and all.. it's quite sad. *hits own head* X3

Angry Kitten XD

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>> Kitten is Angry

*Don't U Dare Trigger The Kitty Kat!!*
bwahaha...

Incomplete

Roots of Our Minds
















Girl: A pre-teeen girl with a lost and fractured mind due to her disturbed life. Realistically OR not , whether it's just simply how she feels about life, is what made her what she is. Strange, is an understatement for Kittyfish.

White Giant Doll: A creation, "mould" from what Shadow and Kittyfish has pictured and painted in mind. Objective; to bring Shadow, physically alive just to live again... for love, for Kittyfish.

Black-Lined Figure (far right): Shadow. A black void. A wandering soul not being able to rest in peace from the cause if being only a step away from ending its life. Emotionally, spiritually saved by Kittyfish. Also believed to be a fragment of Kittyfish's imagination.

*In both ways, Kittyfish saved Shadow from totally disappearing and parting this world. At the same time, he saved Kittyfish from being alone ever again.

- It's been a while since this piece was produced. It was supposed to be a some what self-potrait for my 1st term. The story behind the inspiration to this piece is awesome. Inclusive of a few factors... Thanks to Leandro for his wonderful creation of Mr.Doll. >>












Thx to Rufus-Shadowmode... (you know who you are) =) Without you, this amazing imagination+story wouldn't even been born.

I love this piece. Not because it's really a masterpiece i admit. It's not really taht amazing because the skills aren't really there expecially back then.. the line-arts were lousy and all but the idea behind it. The reason why it was drawn that way.. Why the characters? Why without the face? Why the position? Why the lines getting darker, thicker, bolder? They all mean something. (not bothering to explain it here at the moment -.- *yawn*)

And why post it NOW? Because i just saw Leandro online a while ago. He's making a movie out of Mr.Doll and some other characters. Going back, I've seen that cool wallpaper/pic of Mr.Doll (Why So Alone?) from Rufus which caught my attention 1st. And then as i was broswing Deviantart one day when i was looking for wallpaper and coincidentally found that particular wallpaper and found out that Leandro was the creator. Left a message, and mentioned that his work has actually inspired me and someone else and created a story out of it. Never expecting he would even care to notice or thought he might even get angry for using his idea.. (in a way) for our own work without his permission? but instead, he was really excited about it and replied me a few days later telling me that he was really interested to know all about it. And that was how we got in touch.

Sooner, he wanted to make a short movie out of it. And knowing my story... he loved it and wanted my help with it. It was a complicated.. rather deep story. But i too.. frankly.. find it amazing.. with the combination of Rufus' brilliant imaginations and ideas.. it became very intriguing.. but sadly.. Leandro, is all the way from Brazil.. which makes the almost possible collaboration hard to be done. and.. in addition of my crazy work-load in college.. i can already be killed instantly.

It's been dragging for a long time.. i've really wanted to make it happen. Complete the story.. and hoping to see it be made into a movie. That would be so great! But yea.. probably it wont turn out to be like how i've hoped it would be.. but well.. i guess somehow the characters will be in it, Leandro said. Just a little alteration to his liking and changes of the names.

I've thought of talking more about it here.. and then on the second thought.. maybe not.. because nevertherless, i'm still gonna complete the story i know. and i dont think i wanna reveal it all here yet... on my blog. Who knows? Maybe someday it will be published? =) With the help of Leandro's illustrations.. that would be so wonderful. I'm already getting excited thinking about it. ^^ Me having a lil-tiny contribution with his movie.. and him illustrating my story.. XD but still.. it will never be complete, done or able to end... without Rufus' participation. It is something that has begun, therefore, it has to end. it He is.. part of "Kittyfishadow". Without it.. it'll be like losing an arm.

** this whole story and imagination is my hope, dreams and something very important to keep me inspired and keep going through the SHIT in my life everyday now... Please, do not use it... STEAL it. At least not without my conscent. It's absolutely personal. Very meaningful but something beautiful that i would like to share but NOT given to. But nevertherless, the other reason for it being posted up here, your comment is very much needed and appreciated. I would love to hear from u. Thx =)