Simply Lovely B'day ^^

Note: I've editted this post numerous times because blogspot HATES me. It wont stop messing up the font size. STILL, they are screwed up as u will see. It's awful, yes. So this entry, is pretty outdated. I apologize. Since no one really reads them anyway. XP

I had my birthday celebrated having bashes almost every single year XP. Inviting friends and getting loads and loads of birthday presents. I am grown up XP, so I decided to make it discreet this year, (yea, only this year *bluek*) due other circumstances too of course, budget wise, assignment wise ><>

But that's not just it, I have been changing my sim card quite frequently because my post-paid number has been barred that time and I had to get a new pre-paid number for emergency, so I wanted to swicth my number that night to the permanent one so that my friends could reach me and wish me happy birthday by 12am but... T.T only that night, i discovered that I've lost it... T.T must be when I was changing it previously then I dropped it T.T but of all DAYS!!! T.T it has to be THAT night T.T

So now, you know why I called it quiet T.T I didn't even get a single message or call T.T (okay maybe I did XP from those few who has my new number la >< after all... I had caring close friends to keep me company and make sure that I wont be alone that night XD so I had Derek accompanying me for a drink and a tour to his beautiful house at Gita Bayu.
















These are pics of his Koi Pond. It was really lovely!! XD I loved it. A really comfy place to hang out ^ ^















Note: These pics weren't taken that night. Just took some from him to show here ^^ and we don't really have a pic taken to gether so here is just a glimpse of him (on the left, 2nd pic). heh.

And since there was nothing much to do... he was showing me stuff on his computer and ended up watching clips of David Blaine and Cyril *lol*

So here are some clips from his scary magic tricks then sends me goosebumps whener I watch them... >.<>


Nothing much on that night really but yet, I had fun too... I was pretty excited when he was touring me around his neghbourhood showing me thos impressive houses XD it was really nice... since I always have this fetish for houses... XP So here I thank him again for being an absolutely helpful and caring friend that promises to be by my side whenever I am down ^^ *hugs* Thk u Derek (or I prefer to call him Siong Seng since primary days *lol*) I owe u a BUNCH!
And the next day.. was the actual day XD I spent it with darling Ciaee but we enjoyed ourselves so much that we forgot to take any pics of it T.T *shoots self* T.T

But I'll still like to share here that I really enjoyed the Japanese meal we had at Sakae Sushi at The Curve, Damansara. ^^ The place was pleasant and since it was my big day we "clicked" watever we wanted or FELT like eating (since we had to place our orders through the flat screen computers at every table XD) and ended up to a RM 90+ meal for two of us *lol* but it was all worth it and no regrets la XD we enjoyed it very much XD

Later in the night, Ciaee left home earlier and I joined my family (we went there in a car wiv Ciaee) and we watched Deja Vu midnight show ^^











A smart, intelligent movie. ^^ liked it.

Over all it was a simple and fun birthday ^^ but then soon, I started to feel that something was missing still T.T because after all it doesn't seem complete without at least a cake or a wrapped up prezzie... T.T and later i got two of my crazee girl friends to give me a belated celebration XD and guess what... after a few times of debating and complating, we decided to have it at "Steven's Corner"!!! XD XD XD yes, it is a Mamak Stall (but a famous mamak restaurant la actually XD in OUG)

And so we did...





















The little cake they bought for me from "Bee's" XD it was DELICIOUS! Cute and most of all, I LOVE the message!! *LOL* >> "Happy Birthday Lil' BITCH" XD thx bitches! XD

So, since it was only a mamak celebration, I told the cuckoo girls that I don't care and I want the Mamak Crew to sing me Happy Birthday like TGIF (since it didn't work out as it was planned) and so they did XD

















Debbie & I















Leena the blur & I XD




















Me with the "Happy Birthday" sign from the cake XD (was on happy yappy mood mar XD)



















Me biting the strawberry from the cake~ XD

They made this Fella sang and the rest of his mamak friends and then made everybody from other tables clap for when i blew the candles XD
















This was the dude who was suppose to be incharge in the whole crew singing thingy... so he was asking, "U, wat name??!" At first I replied spontaneously since I was so used to it already so I said, "Amanda". He tried a few times and got it. Then my friends were looking at me this way -> o_O??!!! Then I figured, >< *Oops!* (Tze okay, okay.. So I told him, "NO, NO! It's 'Tze'. Not Amanda.Tze" and then... He was struggling really, a couple of times to get it right. he kept going "Jee?" "No, TZE! as in (Zee)" "JEE??!" "NO!! ZEE!!!" "ZEE!!!" he said. "YES!" *phew* and then when they were singing... T.T

Me about to blow the cake when the mamak crew was singing their "OUT" version of Happy Birthday song *lol*

















it went >> "Happy Birthday to YOU--oo--ooo~, Happy Birthday to you--ooo--oo~, Happy Birthday to Dee--ar-jee-ar--zee--ee--eeee---~ HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU--OOO--OOOO!!!" T.T T.T T.T






























It was nevertherless a simple yet wonderful birthday. I had alot of fun and loved every bit of it. Yes, even the mis-pronouncing of my name, the tour around the rich's neighbourhood, nice movie wiv family ^^ to a simple Japanese lunch wiv the mad girl *lol* simply lovely. One of the most different yet memorable birthday I ever had XD


















And here's a pic of Julius XD just for fun. Took this after coming home that night. He is now adorably handsome & clean XD U'll normally find him dozing off next to mom in her room. XD

Cheers. ^^

Rain

Pitter Patter

As a crease of light slowly seeps in,
From the darkness of slumber;
And a few blinks to clear my mind,
A soothing pitter patter whispered in my ear.

Kittyfish Awaits.

Paint Me

Paint me with your fingers,
So our passion lingers.

Trace my every outline,
With our love so divine.

Never will I forget,
The very sweet moments we had;
No matter how many days shall they pass by,
I'll miss and love, Till the day I die.

Signboard

A pic that my friend took when he went for a trip to visit his relative in Singapore. A pretty good photographer he is =). Has a site displaying his great works. And since he likes sharing it with me.. here is one that he showed me along with a few of others. But I really like this because.. I just wonder.. If the cattle and horses there do read? XP

Aside of that, I simply like the overall too. Mostly, the shade of the colours.

Enjoy. =)

Slumberless Inspiration

"I Do... I Really Did"

The chimes of the wedding bells,
Seemed so near;
The cheering crowd,
Seemed so familiar.

It was like yesterday I felt so bold,
It was like yesterday I felt so sure;
Here I waited,
As we promised.

Once the sun sets,
You said you'll be here;
Once the sun sets,
I ran here.

This empty house you pointed,
This very room we decided;
This dress I chose to be in when I escaped,
This dress, is the dress I chose to say "I Do" to you.

Where are you?
Where were you?
Just a letter saying "I'll be late",
Even the bird who delievered is gone and dead.

I waited,
I am still waiting.

In this empty house you pointed,
This very room we decided;
This dress I chose to be in when I escaped,
This dress, is the dress I chose to say "I Do" to you.

Poem inspired by this beautiful piece of artwork by Blackeri, originally named >> Love.
Do view it, or else you may not know what the hell am i saying.. thnk u.. =)

I couldn't sleep. It has been nights. It has been insane. At first, I wouldn't sleep until I see light from the window... until the sun rises. Now, I don't sleep at all... -_-" Back to how it used to be like when term starts again. It's crazy. I don't know what's wrong with me. Not that I don't want to sleep, I'm freaking tired. Not feeling too well even, but i just cant. Insomnia? Perhaps. It has been there for ages then.

So i browsed DA (Deviantart). After some silly website games. They could be quite fun... (They are safe Rufus dear, if u're reading this. don't worry k? *muax*) So, one of my favourite digital painter, Blackeri has a new submission. Her paintings are always great and mostly has a story behind them. My favourite would be her series of "The Seven Deadly Sins". Do check em out. But her new one, "Love", is very intriguing... Especially when she herself skipped the aprt of explaining it ^^ That makes it really fun to use your imagination to sum tings up, have your interpretation, your own story. Lovely. Loved it.

But honestly, that piece i wrote... I wouldn't really call it complete. It's not even finalised. It's a spontaneous piece of rough imagination and idea of it. If only one day, i would have better patience in sitting down and refining, sharpening the words nicely and resubmit it. I wonder why don't i have the patient to write like that anymore. sigh. Disappointing. Eventhough "Kay" always askes me why am i not writing lately and all.. it's quite sad. *hits own head* X3

Angry Kitten XD

This is one awesome shit!! Check this out people!! XD XD
>> Kitten is Angry

*Don't U Dare Trigger The Kitty Kat!!*
bwahaha...

Incomplete

Roots of Our Minds
















Girl: A pre-teeen girl with a lost and fractured mind due to her disturbed life. Realistically OR not , whether it's just simply how she feels about life, is what made her what she is. Strange, is an understatement for Kittyfish.

White Giant Doll: A creation, "mould" from what Shadow and Kittyfish has pictured and painted in mind. Objective; to bring Shadow, physically alive just to live again... for love, for Kittyfish.

Black-Lined Figure (far right): Shadow. A black void. A wandering soul not being able to rest in peace from the cause if being only a step away from ending its life. Emotionally, spiritually saved by Kittyfish. Also believed to be a fragment of Kittyfish's imagination.

*In both ways, Kittyfish saved Shadow from totally disappearing and parting this world. At the same time, he saved Kittyfish from being alone ever again.

- It's been a while since this piece was produced. It was supposed to be a some what self-potrait for my 1st term. The story behind the inspiration to this piece is awesome. Inclusive of a few factors... Thanks to Leandro for his wonderful creation of Mr.Doll. >>












Thx to Rufus-Shadowmode... (you know who you are) =) Without you, this amazing imagination+story wouldn't even been born.

I love this piece. Not because it's really a masterpiece i admit. It's not really taht amazing because the skills aren't really there expecially back then.. the line-arts were lousy and all but the idea behind it. The reason why it was drawn that way.. Why the characters? Why without the face? Why the position? Why the lines getting darker, thicker, bolder? They all mean something. (not bothering to explain it here at the moment -.- *yawn*)

And why post it NOW? Because i just saw Leandro online a while ago. He's making a movie out of Mr.Doll and some other characters. Going back, I've seen that cool wallpaper/pic of Mr.Doll (Why So Alone?) from Rufus which caught my attention 1st. And then as i was broswing Deviantart one day when i was looking for wallpaper and coincidentally found that particular wallpaper and found out that Leandro was the creator. Left a message, and mentioned that his work has actually inspired me and someone else and created a story out of it. Never expecting he would even care to notice or thought he might even get angry for using his idea.. (in a way) for our own work without his permission? but instead, he was really excited about it and replied me a few days later telling me that he was really interested to know all about it. And that was how we got in touch.

Sooner, he wanted to make a short movie out of it. And knowing my story... he loved it and wanted my help with it. It was a complicated.. rather deep story. But i too.. frankly.. find it amazing.. with the combination of Rufus' brilliant imaginations and ideas.. it became very intriguing.. but sadly.. Leandro, is all the way from Brazil.. which makes the almost possible collaboration hard to be done. and.. in addition of my crazy work-load in college.. i can already be killed instantly.

It's been dragging for a long time.. i've really wanted to make it happen. Complete the story.. and hoping to see it be made into a movie. That would be so great! But yea.. probably it wont turn out to be like how i've hoped it would be.. but well.. i guess somehow the characters will be in it, Leandro said. Just a little alteration to his liking and changes of the names.

I've thought of talking more about it here.. and then on the second thought.. maybe not.. because nevertherless, i'm still gonna complete the story i know. and i dont think i wanna reveal it all here yet... on my blog. Who knows? Maybe someday it will be published? =) With the help of Leandro's illustrations.. that would be so wonderful. I'm already getting excited thinking about it. ^^ Me having a lil-tiny contribution with his movie.. and him illustrating my story.. XD but still.. it will never be complete, done or able to end... without Rufus' participation. It is something that has begun, therefore, it has to end. it He is.. part of "Kittyfishadow". Without it.. it'll be like losing an arm.

** this whole story and imagination is my hope, dreams and something very important to keep me inspired and keep going through the SHIT in my life everyday now... Please, do not use it... STEAL it. At least not without my conscent. It's absolutely personal. Very meaningful but something beautiful that i would like to share but NOT given to. But nevertherless, the other reason for it being posted up here, your comment is very much needed and appreciated. I would love to hear from u. Thx =)

When Things Are Forgotten...

I used to be really daring when it comes to horror movies, stories and all that when i was much younger. During my early teens that is. I realized that as i grow older.. i became more of a "scaredy-cat". Maybe, when someone actually grows, becomes more mature, learn & know more things in life, we tend to be more cautious of things.. like what is called dangerous? What will cause death? And if i really die.. What is gonna happen to my dreams (things i wanna do) the people i love will be left behind in grieve.. and so on the (sappy cheesy thoughts.. yea, that sorta silly things..) so all these actually influences and made what i am today.. no more the silly girl in the family who's the only one who enjoys horror flicks, reads R.L Stine, Goosebumps & all dat silly supposingly teen's scary stuff. When my whole family actually hates it. My dad doesn't believe in the thrill and fun of it. He thinks it's stupid to pay and do something that u know will end up scaring the shit out of yourself. It's like.. why not do something to make yourself happy instead? Like rather go for comedies than to scare YOURSELF of all things??!!So that's my parents. And my bro... (BAH) he's just worse than a chicken in a turtle shell okay? Don't even bother asking.

But i'm just not how i used to be anymore. I still find them fascinating yes i do. But... I don't know really. Like i've mentioned.. I know and understand more things now.. and further more.. about the supernatural.. I'm just to "sensitive" to be exposed to so much really. As in.. They.. LIKE me.. (you know?) yea.. So.. because of that.. i don't really fancy and hv the urge to go crazy over horror movies or even read them anymore. But once in a while.. yea.. i still wanna try it out.. Curios ya know? (curiosity really kills me i tell u). I'll never forget how this particular horror movie actually had the strongest effect on me. It gave me nightmares and lingered in my head for almost 2 months. yea. that bad. I couldn't sleep. It was "The Eye". It was good i must say. But freakin scarily good. Honestly.. i think recent horror movies sucks. Especially the Jap & the Korean ones.. They became a steroe-type already. And it's starting to get stupid. So that adds on to the low interest to such movies.















Until i saw this particular poster that just caught my attention and struck me. (I wasn't sure and didn't know that it's actually a horror movie and further more.. did not know that it's from the Pang Brothers too.. but the image really did catch my attention somehow...strange.) I just told myself "I gotta watch this". (that time, i didn't even know what the story was.)

But I really like the storyline of the horror movies by Pang Brothers so far. Mostly are scary and yet.. has a beautiful (okay maybe not-so beautiful la~)/meaningful story behind it. Somehow.. this movie's write-out says that it's suppose to be really scary. (even Claire said so.) but it didn't really turn out to how i expected it to be.. eventhough i'm not that daring anymore like i said.. but nevertherless, the story is great. Atleast.. it's very much my-kinda-story..~ Seriously. I just LOVE the idea behind it. Not all scary enough. Only a lil at the beginning. But great story-line. (made me T.T T.T T.T)

Reminds me... Of how easily things can be simply forgotten?
The things around us.. Deserves more attention and appreciation. Before it's too late.
You wouldn't wanna think about how would they turn out to be when they are neglected and abandoned and piled up together in an abandoned wrecked up place itself. It's just FREAKY.

Synopsis = There is an alternate plane of reality parallel to our own, one that serves as a dumping ground for discarded and forgotten hopes, dreams, and desires. As those dreams are discarded they are caught...

It's just so sad. When you've actually created something out of nothing.. whether it is really something, a dream, or even a thought but u never took actions on it and done nothing.. simply.. abandoned. They will all end up in one place. Like that. They will all be compiled and gathered there. (and then try to remember how would those things turn out to be?)

* A must watch. Even for someone like me.. (who doesn't fancy horror movies anymore, doesn't believe in Hong Kong, Chinese movies [especially watching in Cinema of all places. waste of money]) I think the story really deserves the attention.

Creepy. Disturbing. Touching. Meaningful. Simply Twisted. (even the ending.. -_-" a lil' too twisted there la~ and confession = some parts are a lil out wan >< .. as in.. spoil the entire movie a lil.. but then again.. ><)

*Heh. For someone who plans to watch it and havent done so yet, and is reading this might hate me for spilling so many beans.. XP sorry.. i can't keep my stupid lips sealed. XP

Nice watch. "My-kinda-movie" XD XD XD
Loved it.

It's Because.

*note: below is a poem I'm reposting.
reasons: i)because it's lovely.
ii)because it's meaningful
iii)because it's related to what it is below.

Curled up in darkness,
She's been.
Discovering the meaning of lonliness,
She has.
Grieving in isolation,
She found comfort.

She began staring at walls,
She wandered in her dreams & nightmares.

She saw moving dark images,
She made friends with Shadow.

Shadow was her friend,
Shadow was her comfort.
Shadow was her guardian,
Shadow was her love.

It was mutual,
It was true.

They were inseperable,
It was a connection between two hearts.

Kittyfish felt contented,
Her world was lighted.
Kittyfish was nurtured with warmth,
She was in love.

Her urge grew,
She wanted it all,
She wanted to withdraw Shadow.

In that realm they found joy,
In that darkroom they found light.
In Shadow, she found a beautiful soul,
In Kittyfish, Shadow found ... ?

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It's because I believe.
It's because I want it.
It's because of you.
It's because of you finding what's in me.
It's more than fictional.
It's a dream come true.

I have to be strong.
I have to believe.
I have to strive.
I have to fight.

But I can't hurt no one.
I can't bear to.
Because they love me.
No.
Because I love them.












** they wouldn't make any sense if you don't understand what it is really about and what is really going on deeply within something I call.... my life. ( as cliched as it may sound.)
but then again.. trust me.. you really.. wouldn't understand. because I wonder if i do so myself.
oh, what the heck. =)

Happy Person

People always tell me..

"Manda, smile."
"you look really pretty when u do that u know?"
"why do u always look so sad?"

Maybe.. I'm really, not a happy person.
Do they actually think that I choose to be that way? That I actually enjoy being unhappy?
Maybe.. a part of me do..
Maybe.. He's right, I'm just easily overpowered by my own feelings. And let them take over me.
But it's not like I love it. It's no fun.
It's tiring. Depressing. Cold and lonely. Eventhough there are people out there concerning about me.. I'll still feel alone and sad. Because I'm being pessimistic?
or again..
Maybe.. This is just me.. Not an excuse to linger in negativity and avoid resposibilities.. but.. it can be really inspiring. Maybe.. I'm just.. eccentric.

Alot of artists, designers are I believe. These artistic people can be simply weird. Probably they just don't use left brains as often so.. yea.. That makes them really different.
But deep inside.. They are human too u noe?
They breath like u do.. and have feelings like everyone. They're just slightly different. Human beings are being molded to adapt to the norms. They have perceptions like, "people should live like this, guys should behave like this, girls should wear like that, so things like such.."

Who said so? Who told u it's wrong to do it differently? Who is there to tell what is really right and wrong anyway? Who? What is right and wrong then? Who is there to prove anything really?

Just because "they" do so.. it doesn't mean that it's right and everybody else should follow.

*before i get carried away..*

Maybe.. one of the reason.. (simplest reason i could give u, my dear..) is that.. i may not like how my eyes squints when i laugh too hard.

Secondly, I am a person who wouldn't stop thinking and worries a whole damn lot from top to bottom, left to right A to Z. It's just me to worry and hope for everything to go right and wallows when things doesn't. Annoying?

AT LEAST. At least.. I'm aware of this. And I know it's bad. And I try very hard to change. but then again.. sometimes i wonder..

why am i even changing?

for what?

for who?

why?

Is it wrong really?
Who said so?

Maybe.. I'm not doing it for myself anymore.. I'm doing for people i love.. That's why. I love them. They'll be devastated to see me so sad. And i love them therefore i don't want them to be this way. Be happy for someone.

Behind the Curtains

More than a week ago..

Meeting

Was opening the gate, don't know what made me tilted my head up. There she was, on the roof. Hesitating to jump, or not. She picked up her kitten with her mouth, walked back and forth and dropped it again. And repeated the same action.

I closed the gate. I stood there and just watched. I was worried. She sensed me looking at her. She stopped and stared back. I think now she's worried too. But I don't want to scare her or anything, I just went in to the house. Thinking.. that she would, in time, get her baby and herself down. When her kitten is much older. Just not now, 'cause she's afraid she might hurt her kitten if she jumps all d way from the roof. My roof.

Window View

was chillin' in the room when...

My brother knocked on the door and asked me to look out the window from my room. I wonder why. And even now I'm wondering why did I even listen to him then. What can it be possibly interesting over there? It's a boring window. Really. No view at all. Just the roof. My room is located behind the roof of the 1st storey. So i won't be able to see anything from there except for the red stained roof tiles. And the sky. Period.

But now I'm glad I did listen to him.

I got up, and lifted the curtain.

There they were.. kitten jumping and prancing around trying to catch mom's tail. Mom was playing along too. They were having fun playing with each other on the roof now outside my room. Outside my window. And a slight smile appeared on my face.. after those days.. after those tiring-always-forcing-a-mile-face. A certain warmth.

And then she saw me again. She stopped. She was still. As still as a rock. She stared straight into my eyes again. Like she did the first time. Kitten was playing on it's own until he saw me too. Ran behind mom and hid.

I backed out. I don't want them to fear me. I closed the curtain.

And now, once in a while.. I hear noises from the roof. Jumping and prancing. Even mewing at times. I would check the window once in a while now.Throwing out chicken hams too once I saw them. She wouldn't eat it of course. Not until she is SURE that I am gone. Once she sees me there, she stares at the very spot she saw me. For hours. Still. Not a move. Even the glowing eyes wouldn't move.

I often wonder how they are. Where they are. I'm quite sure kitten will always be around where mom will be out once in a while to get food? (Sounds familiar)

When it rains..the mewing get's louder. I know they would normally be on the other side of the roof. Which is outside mom's room. They'll be sitting there shivering underneath the aircond. The motor/engine whatever crap u call that which is fixed on the wall on the otherside of the aircond. @.@ if u know what the HELL am i trying to say here. ANYWAY, they use that as a shelter.

Upclose

Returning from college again. Walking into my house, she stood there. Now I can see.. Her eyes are two-toned. Blue and yellow. Skinny. But kitten was worse. I can tell even from afar. But she was scared too. I let out a "cat-call" at her. She "mewed back". An unfriendly one that is.. So I just walked away.

Now, it's been days. Weeks. They're still here. Living on my roof. Part of me was hoping that they won't migrate. Even when they suceeded landing together with kitty. But it seems like mom and dad thinks otherwise. According to the ancestors, cats coming to houses brings bad luck. Opossing from the dogs. Which believes to bring good luck instead. (we had that many times before too. but that's another story. even tortise. no my house is not an animal shelter mind u. although i love them.)

But guess what? It was a party the night before on my roof! "The felines partay on da roof!!" yay~

Well, not really. There 2 big cats and maybe even 2 kittens that night on our roof. Now my parents decided to get rid of them. Yup, the bad luck matter and mom HATES cats.

I heard that they wanna spray water on them.
So dad did. Yesterday. We returned home and there they were again. Mom was feeding kitten something mouth to mouth. I couldnt deny it. It was really sweet. They gave me the smile again.

I was there.Witnessed the situation.

Dad picked up the water hose and started firing at them. They were petrified. Ran, kitten went to the left and mom jumped up to the neighbour's roof. Theye couldn't see each other. The water stopped.

They were mewing. And mewing, and mewing. Calling out for each other. Asking where they are. No where to be seem only heard. Crying out, sadly.

My heart ached.

Kitten ran out and caught mom's sight. Mom went to him.

I said, "It's horrible really. Very cruel." and dad looking at them and said "Go away la... Come down la..*sigh* U stay here for what? Go la..." he knew I cant stand this. "I put the ladder right there from them that day. They wouldnt come down."

Of course they wont. They waited for me to dissappear then only they finshed my ham.

I just walked back into the house. Turned back and saw dad trying very hard to make a scary face at them. *swt*sigh* I shook my head.

He just want to get rid of them.

But some things I know for sure. Now everytime i return home, i would look up at the roof. To see if they are there. Normally they will. And secondly, the window view is not boring anymore. Whether they are still there or not.. may not be the point, because of them being there once, painted a picture in my mind and lifted a smile on my face at that very moment. It used to be dull. Mundane. Everytime i lift that curtain, i look out, i feel "cooped-up". (considering it's a room size of a closet.)

Now whenever I lift the curtain, behind it, I don't see just the stained-red roof-tiles anymore, but a picture of "a kitten who was jumping and prancing around trying to catch it's mom's tail."

From Scratch

Fed up with the previous "Friendster" blog. Making me SNAP from time to time. Been here a couple of times, registering halfway i would give up. I wonder why. But here I go starting up a new one because I just cant stand the lousy system of the old one anymore.