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Roots of Our Minds
















Girl: A pre-teeen girl with a lost and fractured mind due to her disturbed life. Realistically OR not , whether it's just simply how she feels about life, is what made her what she is. Strange, is an understatement for Kittyfish.

White Giant Doll: A creation, "mould" from what Shadow and Kittyfish has pictured and painted in mind. Objective; to bring Shadow, physically alive just to live again... for love, for Kittyfish.

Black-Lined Figure (far right): Shadow. A black void. A wandering soul not being able to rest in peace from the cause if being only a step away from ending its life. Emotionally, spiritually saved by Kittyfish. Also believed to be a fragment of Kittyfish's imagination.

*In both ways, Kittyfish saved Shadow from totally disappearing and parting this world. At the same time, he saved Kittyfish from being alone ever again.

- It's been a while since this piece was produced. It was supposed to be a some what self-potrait for my 1st term. The story behind the inspiration to this piece is awesome. Inclusive of a few factors... Thanks to Leandro for his wonderful creation of Mr.Doll. >>












Thx to Rufus-Shadowmode... (you know who you are) =) Without you, this amazing imagination+story wouldn't even been born.

I love this piece. Not because it's really a masterpiece i admit. It's not really taht amazing because the skills aren't really there expecially back then.. the line-arts were lousy and all but the idea behind it. The reason why it was drawn that way.. Why the characters? Why without the face? Why the position? Why the lines getting darker, thicker, bolder? They all mean something. (not bothering to explain it here at the moment -.- *yawn*)

And why post it NOW? Because i just saw Leandro online a while ago. He's making a movie out of Mr.Doll and some other characters. Going back, I've seen that cool wallpaper/pic of Mr.Doll (Why So Alone?) from Rufus which caught my attention 1st. And then as i was broswing Deviantart one day when i was looking for wallpaper and coincidentally found that particular wallpaper and found out that Leandro was the creator. Left a message, and mentioned that his work has actually inspired me and someone else and created a story out of it. Never expecting he would even care to notice or thought he might even get angry for using his idea.. (in a way) for our own work without his permission? but instead, he was really excited about it and replied me a few days later telling me that he was really interested to know all about it. And that was how we got in touch.

Sooner, he wanted to make a short movie out of it. And knowing my story... he loved it and wanted my help with it. It was a complicated.. rather deep story. But i too.. frankly.. find it amazing.. with the combination of Rufus' brilliant imaginations and ideas.. it became very intriguing.. but sadly.. Leandro, is all the way from Brazil.. which makes the almost possible collaboration hard to be done. and.. in addition of my crazy work-load in college.. i can already be killed instantly.

It's been dragging for a long time.. i've really wanted to make it happen. Complete the story.. and hoping to see it be made into a movie. That would be so great! But yea.. probably it wont turn out to be like how i've hoped it would be.. but well.. i guess somehow the characters will be in it, Leandro said. Just a little alteration to his liking and changes of the names.

I've thought of talking more about it here.. and then on the second thought.. maybe not.. because nevertherless, i'm still gonna complete the story i know. and i dont think i wanna reveal it all here yet... on my blog. Who knows? Maybe someday it will be published? =) With the help of Leandro's illustrations.. that would be so wonderful. I'm already getting excited thinking about it. ^^ Me having a lil-tiny contribution with his movie.. and him illustrating my story.. XD but still.. it will never be complete, done or able to end... without Rufus' participation. It is something that has begun, therefore, it has to end. it He is.. part of "Kittyfishadow". Without it.. it'll be like losing an arm.

** this whole story and imagination is my hope, dreams and something very important to keep me inspired and keep going through the SHIT in my life everyday now... Please, do not use it... STEAL it. At least not without my conscent. It's absolutely personal. Very meaningful but something beautiful that i would like to share but NOT given to. But nevertherless, the other reason for it being posted up here, your comment is very much needed and appreciated. I would love to hear from u. Thx =)